Well , its official. Tomorrow will be my last day here in East Lansing. Tomorrow I rent the truck and throw everything I own in the back of a U-Haul. By Tuesday morning, I'll be on the road to my next step in the journey that is my life.
I'm excited, ya know? But I'm also scared out of my mind. It's only natural I think. I don't know exactly what is waiting for me down there. I know it's going to be awesome. I know I'm going to be meeting tons of awesome people and that it'll be a great time, but until I actually get on the road, I still have this thought in the back of my head, that it will all fall through and I won't be going.
Geez, I must have had this conversation a million times already. So if you read this and we haven't had this conversation, consider this your moment with me.
I keep think about everything I'll be leaving behind. East Lansing and all the asswads that are here have been all I've known for the past 6 years. I'll miss all of them, especially her…
It's not that we won't all still be friends. I know that my best friends that I've met here and I will continue to be best friends for the rest of our lives, but we all realize that it will be different…It has to be.
We can no longer call each other back and say, “I'm coming over.” I won't be able to hop in a car for and hour and go see Eric in Kalamazoo. I won't be able to keep dating the most amazing woman I have ever met in my life.
I know. I know. I know. I'll have a great time and meet a bunch of new people. They'll never take the place of my friends from MSU, just add to them…save it. I've heard it. I know it's true.
But still…it'll be different.
I'm not the first to leave. Sillers is at Northwestern. Kasper is in the military. Rouker is in Indiana. Matt is on his way to California. Next year, the rest of us will scatter to whatever corners of the world our lives take us.
It's not bad, in fact, it's all very very good and necessary…but it's different.
I've been spending my last days drinking as much as possible. Not just to get that buzz that we all know and love, but because I've been at the bar with friends. We're doing all we can to spend the last few hours together. I've been to Meijer and the mall. I've had my last slice at Bell's. I've hit most of my favorite bars for one last time. I'm satisfied. I'm ready. I'm…ready…
So long, East Lansing. I'll never forget you or anyone that I've met here who wasn't a total douchebag.
Anyways, I'll be back on the Fourth of July for Dover's birthday and to catch Kasper and Gaby.
St. Louis or bust, baby!